no hard feelings.

so i've been going through a shitty guilty, neglectful feeling this past week.  more on this later.  on what it means to be somebody's child.  i haven't seen my parents, and or spent time with my family in awhile.  in fact, the other day, my sister who hasn't been over for months, came over, and i holed myself up in my room the entire time.  i don't know how to talk to her anymore, ever since that incident.

but as usual, it takes a weeks worth of closing, openings, going outs, to continuously leaving the house prior to my parents waking, or get home, right after they've  gone to bed.  and then i miss them, which is always a nice reminder/feeling, given the frustration that can occur from still living with them.  so i thought this today - i miss my parents.  and then when i asked them what they did today, they told me, they basically had a family reunion.  which is obviously, generally, lovely - but personally still - it ended up just widening a gap, i was already feeling from my split-personalities.

also, i think i've given up on you.
no hard feelings.