What is it you most desire?

“As someone who was exposed to Catholicism, I say one desires salvation because salvation is everything. Of course. And one desires a final answer, a meaning that contains with finality the naturalness and unnaturalness of the world in a never-to-be-corrected statement. One desires peace, tenderness, intelligence, fame perhaps, and to have been brave and to have done good work - and perhaps to have astounded the world. One desires love in various forms. One desires a naked world of love to replace the one of lonely dailiness, a world which has a heat of emotion and genital heat, and such warm, shocked brightness spreading through it that it might as well be Hell.” — from Profane Friendship by Harold Brodkey