Full disclosure.

I have always had a tremendously hard time cutting people out of my life.  I realize I haven't been on this earth for very long, but for the duration that has taken up - I just cannot seem to do it.  I cannot seem to say, "Goodbye forever."  In fact, it is a running joke between an old friend.  Goodbye forever, he says.  Really he is saying, "Fine, Sruti.  I'll say Goodbye Forever, since you are so scared of death, but you really are going to die anytime soon, and neither am I, so really I will see you later, but okay, if you're so freaked out - goodbye forever."

Yesterday, after hours, and days, of struggling with another person's affect on my existence (he had not been struggling, he had not been stressed.  Oh, I admire that, men.  I admire that greatly).  He saw me face for five seconds, saw how upset it was, and immediately said, "Woah okay, nevermind.  See ya!" which is. the. worst. way to deal with an upset person.  So I said, "I'm done.  If you leave, I'm done."  Because I fucking am.

Done.

His face broke in a matter of mili-seconds.  At first in confusion, then in horror, then in total shock, and then in fear.  He literally cowered, and said, "What? Woah. Okay.  Bye?  Sorry sorry sorry sorry" Hands up, waving them around as though he were innocent, and I was flashing a light in his face.

But he doesn't know.  He doesn't know about Goodbye Forever.
So this day might be hard to get through.