it has NOTHING to do with anything, but phony-ness, GUYS. GUYS. like whatever you like, but god fucking dammit, people, MEAN to ascribe to your feelings.

and it also has EVERYTHING to do with my lack of confidence that i can't shrug off other people's insecurities, and its effect on my own existence. lindsay summed it up pretty accurately the other day. she said it's because people don't understand us. and our intensity is more than flawed, guys, but we feel, and we express how we feel, and we are analytic about everything, but this confuses those who repress, and turn a blind eye, and so they tear us down with terms like, "crazy" and "over-emotional"

my own friends have their own term for it. they call me, "stroggy."

go listen to fiona apple and kanye west.